These breathing exercises aren't cutting it...

 Do y'all ever just wonder why the heck some things happen to you? Well, I certainly do.
 When you're a kid, you have this totally unrealistic perception of how your life's gonna be when you're a "grown up." I pictures myself married to a wealthy something or other with five of the most perfectly behaved children this world has ever seen while looking like a super model. Well I definately don't have the super model thing down, I for sure don't want to get married, and the thought of having children of my own scares me into actual tears. In reality, the start to my adulthood has totally sucked, to put it lightly. Obviously I know that things will eventually work out at some point, but until then I just can't help being a total ball of nerves. I literally worry from the time I wake up til the time I go back to sleep.
 Being that I didn't apply to school or have a plan b aside from the job I had in San Diego, I have totally shot myself in the foot. I am currently in Rome, GA and I've been job hunting... to say the least... it's been very frustrating. It's also frustrating because I don't even know why the heck I'm here in Rome! All I know is that the Lord wants me here and I don't know why. There seems to be nothing here! I know that I've only been here a week, but I just hate not having a job or a schedule of some kind. I feel completely worthless when I don't have a job.
 I just can't seem to chill out, I went and got a pedicure today thinking that it would help me unwind and relax, and all I did was sit there and worry and grind my teeth. I feel like I'm on the constant verge of a breakdown. I haven't broke down since the San Diego thing and I don't want to, I hate to cry, it gives me an ugly face with an accompanying headache.
 My face is breaking out, I have dark circles under my eyes, and my hair is falling out! Ugh, I feel like I'm way too young to worry this much but I mean what else am I supposed to do? I refuse to sit around and do nothing! I'm just going to have to use whatever resources I have and figure something out I guess. Also, I know that everyone goes through this when they're first starting out, but they don't tell you how hard and stressful it is!
 Well, atleast I have a blog I can vent on.